Apology
I apologize for every day wasted in trying to secure the restfulness of the next day.
I apologize for believing that death awaits the completion of human projects.
I apologize for every action postponed from fear, laziness or lack of caring for the other person.
I apologize for every word uttered hastily and every idea imprisoned unfairly.
I apologize for every thought of superiority that crossed my mind in the company of people that looked up to me.
I apologize for any attitude of cowardliness driven by self-interest or the protection of material gains.
I apologize for any injustice I committed towards anyone who didn’t have the capacity or the authority to challenge me or stop me.
I apologize for any advice given or any judgment made without the intimate knowledge of the situation.
I apologize for the sorrow I caused to any person I meant to bring them joy.
I apologize for every act of selfishness camouflaged in giving.
I apologize for my ignorance and more importantly for ignoring my ignorance.
I apologize for my slowness sometimes and my quickness other times.
I apologize for a life guided by pointless and misleading hope.
I apologize for the futile memory and nostalgia of days past.
I apologize to the people I neglected and who are now lost in life.
I apologize to every person who invested in me and didn’t get any return.
I apologize to all the women and men who crossed my path or came my way and I didn’t notice them or pay attention to them.
I apologize to the people who made me stronger with their love and I didn’t love them back.
I apologize because, now, I am unable to do anything except to apologize.
I apologize because I haven’t yet realized that, in life, there is no real apology except dying. Disappearing from the face of the earth, going away forever, leaving this world for good, … are the only apology humans can give for all or any of their deeds during their life.
Finally, I apologize as a last sin I commit in the expectation of welcoming my only and real forgiveness, my inexistence!